Bittersweet Day

I woke up this morning and weighed in. I'm at 156. I'm 1 point from reaching my current 25 lbs lost goal. It's taken me longer than usual, but I just keep holding onto the fact that I'm still going. So what if I'm not the early bird? I bet there will be another worm to get. :P

There's also something else special about today. This date marks 9 years since D and I started dating. Really, I think neither of us remembered the specific day and just chose this one back then(maybe prom day?). I know our first date was at the theater in town to see The Animal starring Rob Schneider. I really can't tell you what I was thinking at that age...probably nothing clearly. Some people would probably say the same about my current thoughts. I don't feel like that's the case, but it's true that I could be under more stress than I can handle and am not getting the amount of sleep I need. Things feel different to me. For the first time, I feel worthy of enjoying life. When I got married, I felt like I was good for nothing except being a wife and MAYBE a mother. I remember sometimes I'd tell myself that no child should be forced to deal with me as a mother, so maybe I really shouldn't have any. Obviously, I couldn't have been more wrong about so much back then. Three weeks have passed and my feelings have not staggered from the breaking point. I hate wait/see stuff, but that's life and I will live it.

Goals: What were my goals? Let me go back... It was January 8, 2010 when I set my goals. I definitely conquered the first goal of exercising 3x a week for a month. Now, did I achieve my medium term goal of losing 16 lbs in 3 months? Actually, I have only lost 6 lbs in 3 months. I'm okay with that because I'm still moving in the right direction. There is a loss, slow and steady, but one the same. My six month goal still remains to be met. I don't feel like I've been hiking per se, but I've walked a nature trail. Really, what defines a HIKE? Clue me in. I was supposed to walk a new trail yesterday, but my friend overslept. We've decided to go for next weekend. I might go exploring it myself if I'm feeling up for it later. I think it's time for some new goals, so I'll be thinking. Have a great day everyone! Til next time...