Shocked? No. Angered? Yes.

It seems to be taking even more adjustment time for me to get used to the office politics and simply the way things are in the world. Not everyone is cut from the same stone and this includes men AND women. I like doing "grunt work" as I call it. It makes me feel good. Maybe that's why I'm so hard on myself about not getting my exercise in. I feel good when I sweat it out lol.

I put a chair together yesterday. It was a patio chair with washers and screws and screw caps. I put that chair together BY MYSELF! So we needed a guy to loosen a screw that someone else tightened so much so that I couldn't get it out. Well, throw a fit over it! It was either that or we sit there for 30 minutes trying to undo a screw. Really, which do you think they'd rather we do? Get it DONE or tinker with it the rest of the day? Well, I don't know with how troubling it is to find work for us to do. Maybe they would rather we just tinker. It's stuff like, "Ladies, grab a broom. Here Mr. Man, take the leaf blower!" Honestly? What if I wanted it? If I'm being brutally honest here, I probably wouldn't have known the first thing about it but I saw the off/on switch. Isn't that all that matters? Gas and turning the power on? You never know until you try, right? I'm not exactly getting the chance to. C'est la vie though, eh? At least I KNOW I can operate a pallet jack and pull that sucker with 5 pallets on it. Freaking awesome.

I believe there are a lot of small things affecting me that are turning into one big emotional breakdown or two or three... Whatever. So I did the only thing I knew to do to prevent myself from losing it. I ran. I got to my break time and I took off. A coworker offered her ear, but I just didn't want to talk about out and went behind the building. I sat down for a minute, texted Facebook(cause I'm a dork like that), and then just couldn't sit still. There was a grassy area and I took advantage. I ran back and forth a few times there, then even ran a little through the parking lot. I didn't care what anyone was thinking at the time. I had to think about me because it was obvious no one else was and I just wanted to be alone while I let off some steam. I might have a running buddy though if she is up for it next week. We'll see. I'd love to run a little every other day on my last break at work. I always seem to need to blow off steam around that time lol. I love that time of day though because it usually goes by super fast after last break.

Gah, do my feet hurt though!! I think I've broken my nikes in too much already for them to be good running shoes. Might have to look into another pair. It's a short paycheck today, so we'll see if that can happen or if I'll have to wait til next payday. Time to get the car cranked(if it's fogged up) and get Ally ready to go. She hates getting ready, but she seems to enjoy actually walking into the daycare center now. A lot of thoughts in this woman's mind(and I will be the first to tell you that some of them are REALLY STUPID-i.e., upset that I'm not getting more attention from the guys-yes, a totally WTH am I thinking thought?!), but I need to catch my grip on reality before I LOSE my mind. Til next time!