Still Kicking(and Screaming)

Again, I took a tiny sabbatical from posting. First things first, standstill as far as D and I are concerned. I find it interesting that now all of a sudden he wants to have these bedtime conversations. Not exactly good timing when I'm exhausted and truly just want to go to sleep. He seems to think that's what I get for wanting him to talk!! He also believes that if he forces himself to do things that I ENJOY, I will stay. We both want each other happy but can't get to a happy medium. I don't want him forced to do things he doesn't like because it's not a true interest and would only be forced time together if I made him go hiking/whatnot with me. I'm not sure what the next move is, but I'll keep this updated so everyone knows.

Work, last week went by quite fast for me. I spent a lot of time talking with my coworkers about how I was feeling. I went out to lunch with them on Friday and enjoyed some nice conversation. We talk about a bit of everything. They know what's going on and also have things going on themselves. I actually got off early Friday because I had to stay until 6:30 pm Thursday afternoon. They wanted a lot of work done then and I was happy to hang around for it. That had me reaching 40 hours at 3 pm, which worked out because that's when they sent everyone home. Poor coworker Holly had been out with the stomach bug so she is going to have a short check like I did after I recovered from the flu.

I would have posted sooner if I hadn't had such a busy weekend. Since I got off work early Friday, Holly and I talked in the parking lot for 30 minutes then headed out to the park on that side of town. We could either walk the track or walk the disc golf course. It looked a bit more rugged, so I chose that. It was a blast. We talked and sang songs, even some we had a love/hate for. We walked away from the park to see one of the town's attractions, but we didn't have any tickets for most of it. Just kind of goofed around a bit and then left lol. We decided to stop by the playground and swing a little. I loved it. :) We walked the disc golf course again to make our way back to our cars and headed our separate ways.

I woke Saturday morning with an itch of sorts to experience a state park hiking trail. I did research the night before and found one nearby, so I decided I was going to go. I woke early and went to leave. My car wouldn't crank. It sounded like it was out of gas(yep!), so I took the van. Got there and I had forgotten my checkbook, so I had ZERO cash/anything for the $3 entry fee. Had to go back home then go back. That was alright anyway because I would've been lost getting around there in the dark. I sat and watched the sun rise over the lake, took some pictures, then headed out to the walking trail. I was so peaceful. I sat down in a few spots and simply stared out. It was beautiful. I got back to the van and decided to walk away from it, down a side road, then along another trail. I was there from around 7 am until around 10 am. I'm so surprised my legs weren't KILLING me afterward. I enjoyed it and look forward to possibly doing it again another weekend.

I weighed in yesterday after having a gain last week. I had exercised some at work before last week's weigh in, so I thought it might just be fluid. My weigh in this week was 157.8. So I'm still making my way piece by piece. I'm dealing with things and trying to focus on my emotional issues so I don't overeat. It seems like I need to eat more than I was, but it's easy for me to reach the limit and go over. Spent the day with my parents yesterday and tried not to overeat, but I skipped breakfast and of course...eventually overate. I know better! Ally is waking up and I need to finish getting ready, so that's my update for today. I hope everyone has a great start to their week!