Breathe

I forget to breathe. No, not literally. I wouldn't be typing if that were the case. I mean amidst life. I forget to breathe when life gets busy. Now I'm tired.

Two more days and I can start the new meds. I'm hoping some of the tiredness will go away. If it doesn't, then I'm just going to guess that my body actually does require that much sleep to function properly and people will have to learn to deal with it. I don't know how else to handle it other than 5 hour energy and I refuse to go that route. That stuff is fine once in a blue moon, but I honestly think it's unhealthy to deprive your body of the sleep it's telling you it needs. Mine could be mostly psychological, but I can't be sure. I know I'm pretty tired when I get anywhere under 8 or 9 hours of sleep. Nine is optimal performance for me, but that isn't always achievable. It really isn't achievable when your significant other wants to have conversations after your head has hit the pillow. Normally, by that time... I'm too far gone.

Work is work. That's all it is right now. Today was my roughest day yet. I felt out of it, off kilter, out of groove. Whatever you want to call it, that's what it was. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. If not, I will get over it because my days off are Wednesday and Thursday. That probably means a full weekend of working for me though and lots of missing Ally. :( That's going to bite. It's going to be weird having the house to myself on my days off too. Last week day I had off, I spent it out and about. Don't think I will be able to do that this time around unless I make back to back visits to the WIN Job Center and that's just not necessary!!

I'm not looking forward to next week's hours. I keep inching closer and closer to the night shift hours. Not gonna like working 4 pm to 11 pm! Next week is something like 9 am-6 pm. I worry the afternoon crazies are going to make me cry. I don't know lol. Just even more experience dealing with people. Maybe THAT is what's exhausting me. I don't know. Blah, who knows anything?! :p It's almost time for bed. Lots of things are coming up. I have my sister's baby shower and then a counseling appointment the day after. That should all be fun! At least one will be fun anyway. Til next time...