Genetics

As much as my mom used to scream at me, "You're just like your daddy!" I realized I'm a lot like her too. Things tend to run in families and a huge part of my every day issues is something that literally took my mom down today. My dad seems to have similar issues as well. What a pattern.

I've talked about my diagnosis of IBS. Got it years ago. My mom was diagnosed with something similar to that today and I'm wondering if it could be part of my problem too. I've never been disabled by the pain though. This episode of pain she went through was awful... I hope it doesn't happen again. I have no idea what could have happened if one thing had gone differently with the day, if we hadn't been there for her... Ugh, not a topic for my mind to wander with.

Ulcerative Colitis is an inflammatory bowel disease. Symptoms of it that you don't get with IBS includes things like anemia, loss of appetite(don't quite agree with this one bc I have it occasionally though I've not been tested for either the syndrome or the disease), and fever. I'm not sure she had any of these. She has a history of anemia and IBS, so I guess it makes sense. It's not immediately life threatening, but I'm super paranoid and of course worry incessantly when there's no need. What will be will be, let's just hope it's the path we want to see...within reason of course. I can't stop the world from turning!

Maybe one day I'll be able to get some tests done and know for sure which one I'm truly dealing with. For now, I just take it a day at a time and try to manage it as best I can with the least amount of stress. Yeah, that's easy. :P I'm glad that after today, I have tomorrow off too. I feel exhausted in so many ways right now that I wasn't going to be ready anyway.

Speaking of the word "exhausted"... It's 12:13 am on my clock currently and I'm thinking, "Why am I still awake?" Gotten out of the groove since Tim went back to work. He's not here to nudge me to bed!! Four nights and one day or something like that and we'll be back to semi-normal. That's all we can ask for in our lives, semi-normal!! :) So I'm gonna do what I'd rather not and face the pillows without him and he can wake me when he gets home in the morning...unless Alayna beats him to it. Time will tell. Til next time...


“We are driven by five genetic needs: survival, love/belonging, power, freedom, and fun.”
~ William Glasser