Love and Scheduling

Not much going on in my little world lately. I just ended my week with Ally yesterday. I feel like it was a good one. Fewer mornings of leaving her crying at the daycare, which was a relief for me. That part of our time tears my heart to pieces, so it felt great to get her up and have breakfast then get her to the daycare. Seems like she adjusted a little better having that extra time with me in the mornings.

Work is a little difficult. I have an alternating schedule that I deal with partly for myself and partly for the company. They need me at these hours and I get a little less time moseying around town til I have to go in. Before, I'd be waiting around town for 5 hours before it was time to start work. It's not completely ideal right now, but it's somewhat better. Now that it's my off week without Ally, I'm working evening shifts so I'm home til an hour before I have to be there. Much better than sitting around T-town with no where to go. Gets tempting to spend money, I tell you. :P

My love life is wonderful. Our schedules tend to collide with each other, where he's working when I'm off and vice versa. We've done good getting through it, I think. I'm not gonna lie; It's hard to manage dealing with the fact that you're living with this person yet you've literally just gone DAYS without seeing him. That's just weird!! The best part about this day and time is the availability of communicating in other ways though. We're in constant contact when we can't be together, so there's always a way to let one another know that we're missed and loved. Yay! Lol.

I'm surprised by the change in my attitude and behavior since getting together with him. I'm not on the depression/anxiety meds anymore. I'm not overly angry or short-tempered all the time. I'm extremely happy to be off the meds. The effects from long-term use was always a worry in the back of my mind, especially when you're required to get liver testing periodically due to it. I'm still getting the achy all over and fatigue that I've always had that no one can seem to figure out. Maybe I just need some kind of light exercise to do every other day or something to get moving a little. Doing nothing with your body can hurt it. I remember feeling pretty good when I was active on a regular basis. Makes sense.

My weight remains steady at 170. It's been there for a while. I'm watching it now and wanting to get that back down a little. Twenty pounds would be a reasonable goal in my mind. I don't think I'll ever want to be perfectly thin/svelte. I mean, who wouldn't love that? I'm not going to set my sights on an unreasonable goal though and from where I've been, that's just not going to happen. I've come a long way, baby, and I'm satisfied with that much! I do need to reevaluate and set up some recent goals for myself simply for overall well-being.

So, lose 20 pounds and feel better all over. I have the time tomorrow. I'll aim for a 20 minute walk or 20 minutes of that and something else mixed in. My jump rope is around here some where. Lol. If I happen to have an afternoon with Ally, I can let her ride around on her tricycle while I exercise. Anything is possible. Til next time...

"One must learn a different... sense of time, one that depends more on small amounts than big ones." ~Sister Mary Paul