Life changes so quickly. If you're lucky, the changes occur bit by bit and over the course of many steady years... I'm not feeling lucky with the amount of changes happening at one time. I guess I have a bad habit of overlooking the small stuff until it turns into a big pile of...well, big stuff! I'm left wondering, right along with mister fiance, what the hell is wrong here?!
I've been a mix of up and down dealing with girls being here for the summer. Some days are better than others when they're not following our rules. I'm not used to having to remind someone to pick up after themselves every single day. I feel like it's always going to be the same with them every summer. It may change for them but I'm not sure how to get it to change from me. I go from feeling somewhat comfortable to completely disconnected. It's awkward and annoying. I just want to feel okay again.
Then there's the wedding to plan! I can't believe I just typed that. I am getting married next year! The man is great and makes me so happy and has made me see what I want in a relationship and this is it. It has been it from day one but it just took some time to develop, then there's always the adjustment period with everything for me before I realize... Hey, this is actually working. I'm giddy and happy and...in love.
Then I think about work. That is my true uncertainty. Continuing where I am or attempting to go back to college. Really, it would be an and bc I still need my job. I like it some days! Just like everyone, I'm sure, there are ups and downs. I don't like a lot of uncertainty and I guess that's what scares me right now.
Either way, it's time to start saving. I have a lot to think about, a lot of decisions to make, and I guess maybe...just maybe...nothing but time.
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